An Unfolding Spiritual Journey

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Under the Shadow of His Wings…

My inner being was empty.  I felt the loss keenly, uncertain why I felt incomplete.  Worse, nothing seemed to fill the emptiness inside.  I flowed through life without purpose, seemingly alone, and uncertain why I was alive.  Questions filled my heart, unspoken, but meditated upon.  No answers came.

One day a dear loved one spoke to me about eternal life.  She shared that life after death was real and that I would have a place in eternity.  My interest was sparked, and as I listened, my heart began to pound.  I knew I was on the precipice of something new; I wanted to know more about my place in eternity.  She told me the Bible held the answers I sought, for it tells of the Creator, the Lord God Jehovah and His Son Jesus.  She was right.

I sought the truth and He came to me.  He showed me my true nature, and I was ashamed.  I was totally engulfed in self, with little thought for anything else.  I had been so self-focused I could not see the needs of others.  I had always been in control of my life, striving for my perfection.  I often failed miserably.  Jesus had come and was perfect.  He was perfect because He was God’s Son.  I was awed.

God’s Law revealed my inadequacy, for God condemned me for my disobedient nature.  I felt hopeless, knowing that I was powerless to change.   I could have given up, but I was consumed with wanting to be acceptable to my Creator.

As I read and studied, I learned my best works were no better than filthy rags.  There was nothing I could do to be acceptable in God’s eyes.  I could not earn a place in eternity.  Only He could provide a way to enter in.  I was destined to die as punishment for my disobedience to His Law.

God is love, so He created a loophole.  There was a way that I and others could enter in.  Jesus died in my place, taking punishment that I deserved and He didn’t.  He sacrificed Himself for me and others like me.  He didn’t have to.  He chose to give His life so that all might have eternal life.  If I accepted His sacrifice, I could have eternal life with my Creator God.  I could be free!  Gratitude overflowed from my heart.  My relief was intense because I had come so close to missing my God and my Lord.

I knew I had to ask for His forgiveness and for a place with Him in eternity.  With my prayer, I knew I was committing myself to a changed life.  I took a breath and like a diver, plunged in with my words of acceptance and supplication.  How could I stand before the living God and ask for His mercy?  How could I not?  From that moment, my life was changed.

Now I live by His standard, no longer struggling to find the way through life.  He leads me in all things.  He teaches me all things.  He is my comforter and my help in time of need.  I am no longer alone!  He is with me, and in Him all things are possible.

My purpose is to glorify my God and my Lord.  I am not perfect; I still fail miserably, but my Savior is ever ready to receive me when I come to Him in submission.  Admitting my guilt, I find forgiveness and restoration. My record is wiped clean, as though I had never broken His Law.

“As far as the east is from the west, so far hath He removed our transgressions from us.” Psalm 103:12 (KJV)

My heart is filled with praise!  He has changed me, molding me to be more like Him.  My heart rejoices in being made acceptable to Him.  I have hope for an eternal life with Him.  I stand in amazement that He could love me!

I am a wife and mother.  Once, it seemed impossible.  He prompts me to write and teach others who struggle, so they too might find hope and help.  He is my purpose and has established my worth.

Patient and kind, He knows how frail I am.  My heart swells with thanksgiving for His persistence, always bringing me to a new level of understanding and submission.  My will has been bent, but not broken.  I am yielded.  I am a new creation.

“For He knoweth our frame; He remembereth that we are dust.”  Psalm 103:14

The more I study, the more I learn of Him.  He is just.  He is higher than all others.  Through my times of testing, He is with me, always exhorting me to continue onward.  I have grown.  He has taught me true tolerance and understanding, showing me how to love the lowly, the despised, and the rejected, for He was one of those.

I no longer fear, for God is faithful to keep His promises.  Whatever He brings into my life, I will endure.  I know it will only make me stronger.  My trust is greater, for He has proven Himself to be faithful and true.  A favorite verse in the Bible:

“He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.  I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress; my God, in him will I trust.  Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.  He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust; his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.  Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;” Psalm 91:1-5 (KJV)

My heart is filled, no longer empty and yearning.  I am alive, reborn in Him, my God and Creator.  Life is a fulfilling journey filled with richness and joy, but only as I live under the shadow of His wings.


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